you don't know if you are until he finds you and slaps your face so hard that you can't move your legs for days. face, legs, body, you know, are connected. so when fate came in your direction, avoid it as much as you could. no reason for that, it will catch you, sooner or later. but run. despite everything, run like hell.
after some time you will feel a dumb feeling everywhere. your dreams will be about fire and disasters but its ok, you can wake up and disregard that, start your day like all is well and go to bed at night like your life is about nothing unusual. and roll into sheets asking help to a god, any god, and receive silence as answer because you are trying too hard to be greater than fate.
relax. accept you are flaw, are not perfect and are the most stupid person on earth. then cry. give special effort in this part, cry your eyes out. for real. because was a big load over your head. face it, you are really small compared to everything around you. your family is much more powerful, society is even more, global warming will kill you if you survive now, or death, universe is bigger and bigger. the neighbor cat is more powerful than you, face it. lay on the ground and wait the sky fall on you, let it do it, the falling, the smashing, all the destruction from tail to top.
soon you'll realize it didn't fell at all, was your heart crushing, your mind melting, your bones.... breathe. breathe again. once more. stop breathing now, 20 minutes and you'll be fine.
however if you start breathing again (happens everytime), accept your body want to be here for more.
Next day do the same. after some days, weeks, months... you will, you know, be alive again. (have found Adele singing something about it. funny. maybe)
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